1. Love's Greatest Disaster
This is where we fall from graceTo selfishness-
And as we drag each other down,
We lose ourselves…
Look at me now-
Is this really what you wanted?
Well, please just know
It's not all my fault.
Look at you now-
You're playing the part of the victim
With that broken heart on your sleeve.
(Broken heart on your sleeve!)
[Chorus]
Has everyone heard
I'm love’s greatest disaster?
With a heart
Black and cold as the night?
Couldn't you see
I'm love’s greatest disaster?
But reality comes with a price…
(Comes with a price!)
Look back and see-
Did you really think i’d let you
Do and say all those things?
Well, you're wrong.
Throw me a guilt trip-
But, the truth lies
Somewhere in the middle
Of this drama that we both create.
[Chorus]
Has everyone heard
I'm love’s greatest disaster?
With a heart
Black and cold as the night?
Couldn't you see
I'm love’s greatest disaster?
But reality comes with a price…
[Bridge]
I have too much self dignity
To let you steal the best of me,
When all I ever wanted
Was to love and be loved selflessly.
I have too much self dignity
To let you walk all over me,
I know that you will never see
Everything we couldn't be.
(Couldn't you see
That I am love’s greatest disaster.)
And now I've failed someone again…
[Chorus]
Has everyone heard
I'm love’s greatest disaster?
With a heart
Black and cold as the night?
Couldn't you see
I'm love’s greatest disaster?
But reality comes with a price!
Has everyone heard
I'm love’s greatest disaster?
With a heart
Black and cold as the night?
Couldn't you see
I'm love’s greatest disaster?
But reality comes with a price!
2. Wake Up Colleen
I saw you just the other day,
And you were standing by his side.
Might I ask you love,
Why such a long face?
When in the end,
You got the thing you really wanted-
You even slayed a heart or two.
[Chorus]
I hope you’re happy now-
Although the grass is always
Greener where you’re not.
And I am happy now-
Since you have gone away
And I am still alive.
I heard the news the other day-
You were crying all alone.
Might I say, that sounds all too familiar.
He’ll break your heart in time,
And you’ll pretend everything is fine.
But, I will know the truth
And I won't care at all.
(I won't care at all!)
[Chorus]
I hope you’re happy now-
Although the grass is always
Greener where you’re not.
And I am happy now-
Since you have gone away
And I am still alive.
I hope you’re happy now-
Although the grass is always
Greener where you’re not.
And I am happy now-
Since you have gone away
And I am still alive.
3. Hindsight is Always 20/20
I don't wanna hear it anymore-
You're sitting all alone
Waiting for his call.
And I am growing weak
From everything you said-
I never thought a friend
Could make me feel so dead.
I thought you had a heart-
I thought you were my friend.
[Chorus]
Please, don't say another word-
If it's gonna make me feel
More alone or less alive.
(Or do you even care)
You're killing me with all your lies-
From those blue, enchanted eyes
And I will never be the same.
And it's no one’s fault but mine.
All those stars I wished upon-
And every song I sing,
And everything you said to me
Never meant a thing.
But, I knew it all along-
That you never would be mine.
But I was dumb enough to dream,
And I kept wasting all this time.
I thought you had a heart-
I thought you were my friend.
[Chorus]
Please, don't say another word-
If it's gonna make me feel
More alone or less alive.
(Or do you even care)
You're killing me with all your lies-
From those blue, enchanted eyes
And I will never be the same.
And it's no one’s fault but mine.
[Bridge]
So, there you are,
I hope you’re happy-
As you're drowning in these selfish tears.
And I finally know I'll never have your heart.
(So, please, just let me be)
‘Cause, I'd rather you leave me alone,
Than hear of how he
Turned your heart to stone!
[Chorus]
Please, don't say another word-
If it's gonna make me feel
More alone or less alive.
(Or do you even care)
You're killing me with all your lies-
From those blue, enchanted eyes
And I will never be the same.
And it's no one’s fault but mine.
Please, don't say another word-
If it's gonna make me feel
More alone or less alive.
(Or do you even care)
You're killing me with all your lies-
From those blue, enchanted eyes
And I will never be the same.
And it's no one’s fault but mine.
4. Summer's Smile is Gone
My spirit has grown so tired,
These days have grown so cold.
I never wanted it to come to this,
And I never meant to hurt you.
There is nothing left of me,
Swallowed my my own design.
But I'm not yet ready to die
Before I ever lived.
[Chorus]
Summer’s smile is gone-
And I fear that it is never coming back.
(My lungs are filled with nothing.)
The leaves are falling down-
And I know that it will never be the same.
There’s no room left in here for words...
I'm in too deep and can't go on,
This fight in me is gone.
There’s no way to run from this,
And we will both go down.
We are slowly fading here,
With every “I love you”.
Can't you see this tragic ending
Slowly cutting through?
[Chorus]
Summer’s smile is gone-
And I fear that it is never coming back.
(My lungs are filled with nothing.)
The leaves are falling down-
And I know that it will never be the same.
There’s no room left in here for words...
[Bridge]
I’ve sacrificed myself-
With my chest bleeding wide open
For the last time.
This happened way too fast-
I can't keep up, I'm drowning-
And you can't save me now.
But, at least try and save yourself…
[Chorus]
Summer’s smile is gone-
And I fear that it is never coming back.
(My lungs are filled with nothing.)
The leaves are falling down-
And I know that it will never be the same.
There’s no room left in here for words...
5. Your Wish
As he’s overflowing from your eyes again,
I can't help but wish that I was him tonight.
So I promise not to let you down or ever let you go-
I'll hold you here until your strength returns.
And I'm afraid of this, but I will stay here anyway
‘Cause there’s nowhere else that I would rather be…
[Chorus]
And I would take your pain and put it on myself
Just to see your lovely smile again.
And I would proudly draw my last breath
If it meant you’d be alright,
‘Cause I'd so give my life for you…
And in your darkest hour, I could be your light-
One that won't go out as long as you are near.
And you'll never be alone ‘cause I am just a heart away-
I could be the hope that gets you through the night.
And I'm afraid of this, but I will stay here anyway
‘Cause there’s nowhere else that I would rather be…
[Chorus]
And I would take your pain and put it on myself
To see your lovely smile again.
And I would proudly draw my last breath
If it meant you’d be alright,
‘Cause I'd so give my life for you…
[Bridge]
(Open up your eyes, look up to the skies.)
Tonight I made a wish upon a shooting star for you.
(Stay here in my arms, I will keep you safe)
Keep holding on and I will catch you every time you fall.
But you can't see me here,
(You can't here me here)
Holding up your head and singing you to sleep.
But I will stay right here,
(I will stay right here)
‘Cause you've become the only air I need.
[Chorus]
And I would take your pain and put it on myself
Just to see your lovely smile again.
And I would proudly draw my last breath
If it meant you'd be alright,
‘Cause i’d so give my life for you…
And I would take your pain and put it on myself
Just to see your lovely smile again.
And I would proudly draw my last breath
If it meant you'd be alright,
‘Cause i’d so give my life for you…
6. Eleven Eleven
I can feel it now
As the sun sets over the hills,
And we’re swept away
By a sea of stars.
Lie beside me now
On the grass wrapped up in sheets,
The moonlight provides us
With everything we’ll ever need.
[Chorus]
(You’re surreal…)
It feels like I'm flying
Above all the rivers and streams.
(Fly with me…)
I'll take you away to the places
That we’ve only seen in our dreams.
I've grown tired in my search
For the man I thought I should be,
So, I would just settle
For anything that came to me.
Then, you fell in my arms
Like an angel summoned to me,
Making sense out of everything
I never thought I would see.
[Chorus]
(You’re surreal…)
It feels like I'm flying
Above all the rivers and streams.
(Fly with me…)
I'll take you away to the places
That we’ve only seen in our dreams.
[Bridge]
The fire’s burning bright-
Illuminating love
Through the glow in your eyes
Making every single wish come true.
You’re everything I'll ever need.
[Chorus]
(You’re surreal…)
It feels like I'm flying
Above all the rivers and streams.
(Fly with me…)
I'll take you away to the places
That we’ve only seen in our dreams.
7. Heart And Substance
The tears are rolling down her face
And flood into this lonely room.
Her feet no longer grip the floor,
And I'm the one who’s washed away…
And as she tips the bottle
Back another time,
She says my love cannot compare
With how it makes her feel alive.
But I used to be the only one
She thought worth fighting for,
Before the darkness took it’s hold
And I can't fight her anymore.
[Chorus]
On my hands and knees,
I can't compete
With a demon
Much greater than me.
What can I do?
Her world is crashing,
While I need to keep
Myself from drowning too.
And I can see her
Gripping tightly to the sheets,
She sees red in every dream
While her heart begins to bleed.
And when I take her in my arms
She only pushes me away,
And I'm left here on the ground
While she drinks away the pain.
[Chorus]
On my hands and knees,
I can't compete
With a demon
Much greater than me.
What can I do?
Her world is crashing,
While I need to keep
Myself from drowning too.
From drowning too!
[Bridge]
And I don't want to say goodbye,
But she will leave me here to die.
I know it's not my problem-
In reality, it never was.
‘Cause I can't make things any better,
She needs to want to change-
And she is only dragging me along
The bottom of the sea of substance.
All that I can do is pray for your sake!
[Chorus]
On my hands and knees,
I can't compete
With a demon
Much greater than me.
What can I do?
Her world is crashing,
While I need to keep
Myself from drowning too.
8. A Game you Can't Win
So, here you are again
Lying peaceful by my side.
You’re holding on so delicate,
I'm gripping for dear life.
You said that no one else could know
These moments that we share,
But they only mean a thing to you
The times when he’s not there.
I will never be the one…
[Chorus]
And when it all goes up in flames,
Will you wish for me to mend your broken heart?
And when you see the sun go down,
Don't you call on me to save you from yourself.
(I'm taking back this wounded heart!)
Oh, what a lovely friend you’ve been-
Spinning me around.
Take my love and give it back
Shattered on the ground.
Do you take me for a fool?
Have you turned over your cards?
Do you think that I can't feel the thorns
Stabbing at me from your arms?
I will never be the one…
(Be the one!)
[Chorus]
And when it all goes up in flames,
Will you wish for me to mend your broken heart?
And when you see the sun go down,
Don't you call on me to save you from yourself.
(I'm taking back this wounded heart!)
[Bridge]
And when you cry,
Will it be in vain?
‘Cause I caught you with the
Sword in your hand?
Finish me off-
Cash in your prize,
A weaker love than mine!
[Chorus]
And when it all goes up in flames,
Will you wish for me to mend your broken heart?
And when you see the sun go down,
Don't you call on me to save you from yourself.
(I'm taking back this wounded heart!)
I'm giving up-
I've played this game a thousand times,
And no one ever wins!
9. The Aftermath
The winter killed my heart again
And froze the blood within my veins-
So it no longer beats,
And all that I can do is slowly die.
But, that's what happens
When you step out in the cold-
Without something to keep your vitals warm,
And I will never feel the sun again.
So, here I will return-
Once again to this place.
Just another empty word-
Another cold embrace…
So, now’s the time to sever ties
To everything I've ever known-
To everything I've ever done in hopes
Of rising up again.
But, every upward step I take,
The ground sinks that much faster-
And every time that I get closer,
The farther I become to what is real.
So sick with desolation-
My body has grown numb.
I'll never dream again,
It never got me anywhere but here…
Never again, will I reach out with open arms.
Never again, will I hang onto a word.
Time after time, such a disgrace I have become.
Unloveable…
But that's what one gets for never
Learning from the same mistakes.
Not here again,
Seek and you will dwell in truth...
10. Calm Before the Storm
I love this time of year,
These summer afternoons-
The sunlight in the trees
Takes me back to when life was surreal.
And then, I can't erase
Those visions of her face-
And a summer nothing can replace…
And then I scream her name
While falling to my knees in shame-
But I have grown so selfish from the start…
Then the clouds roll in,
A peace so bitter sweet-
Before the violent summer storm,
When I am plagued with all the
Things I've done in vain-
To never hurt again,
But I can still feel it
Cutting like the sharpest blade
Into my heart.
And then I scream her name
While falling to my knees in shame-
Surrender to the summer sky,
Sacrificing all my pride-
And I have been so selfish from the start.
And now it's all the same,
Different faces different names-
But these memories will never fade…
But, loneliness can't cure a broken heart,
And I have been so selfish from the start.
But, loneliness can't cure a broken heart,
And I have been so selfish from the start.
And now in left to make it on my own,
(Don’t ever live for yesterday)
Please don't leave me here to die alone.
(You must look toward tomorrow)
Now’s the time to rise and start again,
(Don't ever live for yesterday)
Just dry your eyes and pick up once again.
(You must look toward tomorrow)
Don't ever live for yesterday-
You must look toward tomorrow...
11. Awake
Silence fills the breezy air,
And I can finally hear your words.
And through the darkness,
I see stars brightening my way.
I no longer feel such loneliness,
For you were always here.
And all the love that I've longed for,
Can't compare to your grace.
[Chorus]
And all the sadness and regret
Melt away tonight.
And everything I've become,
The shame and bitterness
Is gone and washed away from me
And I will always do your will…
I feel your loving arms around,
In the wind that gently blows.
Humbling my selfishness,
Forgiving all my sins.
My God, I know I've let you down-
Time and time again.
But you haven't given up on me,
You help me carry on.
[Chorus]
And all the sadness and regret
Melts away tonight.
And everything I've become,
The shame and bitterness
Is gone and washed away from me
And I will always do your will…
And everything is beautiful,
The lessons I've been shown-
And at the end of this life,
I know I'm coming home...
Album Credits
An Autumn Sunrise is:
Bryan Brophy- Vocals, guitars, drums, keyboards.
Mike Lesnesky- Bass guitar.
Recorded, engineered, mixed, and mastered by Jimmy Reynolds in his home studio and at The Stude at TwentyFiveEight Studios, Scranton, Pa.
All music written, arranged, and performed by Bryan Brophy except bass guitar, which was arranged and performed by Mike Lesnesky.
Thanks: Mike Lesnesky, Jimmy Reynolds, Matthew Rinkunas, Katie Blake, Markie Dennebaum, Tom Bonomo, Chris Borgna, Nate Hosie, Amanda Vitz, Jesse Walsh, Tom Graham, Standoff!, all the bands I have played in or with, Glenn Kempa, Chad Rebar, Dave Rebar, Kyle Rebar, Chris Hludzik, Mom, Dad, my wife Candace, my son Liam, anyone else who has supported this project, and Jesus Christ for being my Lord and Savior.
© Bryan Brophy 2013 All Rights Reserved.
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